song is a kind sitmulation too

Been listening to Jay's songs these days, needless to say, his songs, from classic to recent, r really nice and meaningful. He is really talented.

saw this MV.. the song is so nice and i like the rhythm too.. however i tried upload the vid but it seems too big of the file. nvm here's the link to it. click me.

one of the things i do to keep myself occupied is watching MV from youtube, ya, again, i think i no life. i know it's fine to do it once in a while but i could say i doing it almost everyday. the routine would be facebook, taking care of my game thingy... play poker... look out for funny video my fren updates or jus starring it for mins. then when i get bored with FB, i would watch youtube, there i would look for video like cute kittens, MV or jus random video... again my purpose is to keep myself away from boredom. where is he? he is all along beside me, but i could nv felt him there. seriously. it's as if i m alone but yet no freedom, to clarify it is not becos he doesnt give me freedom YET, he gave it to me at later time, ha. as if it could change anything. so naive. it nv change but something else changes. guess.

we talked last night till 3am. it was supposed to be a way to resolve our problem, but i dun think it has. nothing has resolved or cleared. idk whether im right, it is not going to be fine like how we used to be. from the feeling i have, i know it. i can feel it and it has been persisting for so long already. i hate it. it has been ruling my mind, body n emotion. i feel like im breathless, im suffocating so bad that i wish someone could jus stab me in the heart.