"i wan to go hm"

i wish i could say that too. i wish i could have a place to hide when i need. i wish life could be a game, when u're not happy, jus start all over again. i wish i could have someone dearer to talk to. i wan to talk to my father n mother, but i can't. i've so much to tell, so much that words can't describe it now. i became tired.. to talk bout it again. if everyone has a mirror self, then mine would be the only person who understands me. i wish i could find myself. i know it's impossible.

i'm feeling sad, so terrible inside. i feel bad, guilty, unjust and neglected. i felt i've no choice. but i dun think i've done wrong, y do this to me? y blame me for that? or yes i am to blame? then blame me for everything if that will make things better. i would rather take it then suffer. i dun wan to cry, it makes my heart ache.

and i miss my father, i wan to talk to him. when will it be my time to go? the one i felt most sorry to is my father, he was a great man but i did wrong to him. i made him sad n cried for me. i am unfilial, i shall go to hell. then i can't met my dad anymore. im so sad. sometimes i even think, am i the one that made my father aged so fast? too much grief and worries make a person old isn't that so? i am such a bad daughter. there were so much to tell u my father, but there was no time. i'm really regretful.

no one knows how i feel inside.