I miss you badly

i miss my father very much.. especially when i heard of this song, it truly sings my feeling n i cried while looking at the lyrics. what a sad song. it took a long time to upload the vid here so i post the link instead. click here to listen.

i been dreaming bout my father quite often these days.. in fact i think of him quite frequent too.. been thinking a lot of the past. although we hadn't been talking since i was young, somewhere during my teenage.. i seriously regretted the first moment i stopped talking with my father, that drifted both of us till he was gone. i'm really regretted it a lot, even until now. whenever i met my mom and she started talking about my dad, i always felt like crying, my heart really ache a lot, very painful and it's like tearing apart. but i bear with it very hard.. i dun wan to cry in front of my mom. but the tears that wells in my eyes r inevitable. i really miss him and need him here by my side, even if he still acting tough, not showing his love to me even though he adored me the most like what he said the last time i hugged him before he left me, i will still approach and talk to him, show him how much his daughter loves him.

There r so many things i havent done yet. As a daughter, i wasn't a good one. I always make my parents worried for me, make them sleep with no ease. i deserve to go to hell. when i died, i wish i can c my father again, or reincarnate as his daughter again, i wan to love him 1 more time.

I miss you father.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you